N.E.W Journey

O.k. so this is my new journey!

I'm pretty excited....actually i'm so dang excited that I just don't know what to do with myself.  Can I fast forward like 2 months... and see the changes :)

As most of my dear friends know I was diagnosed with thryoid disfunction since my daughter was born back in 2003.  They dignosed me with Hyper than Hypothyroidism.

Our Thyroids have many functions that we NEED to have a successful life, shoot just a successful DAY in my case!

Thyroid controls our hormones, weight and temperature.. should I go on.....

The purpose of your thyroid gland is to produce, store, and release thyroid hormones into your bloodstream.

These hormones, called T3 and T4, affect almost every cell in your body and help control your body’s metabolism.

So with all that said.... 

If it isn't all flowing and working correctly for  a WOMAN it would be pretty crappy.   Well friends,  this is what leads me to  WHY I'm on a new journey...

After having thryoid cancer and having to rely on my doctors to find the right dose to compensate, I needed to get extra help to control my hormones, mood swings, temperament and freak outs, especially around my "girlie time".

I went on  Zoloft and I was on it for 5 months... it was fabulous!!!  That was UNTIL I had the side affect of gaining 20 pounds.  Now that is not so fabulous.

Talk about making me totally bummed, down on myself and not comfortable in my own skin.  My knees where hurting from the extra weight and I found it hard to breath sometimes. It was sad when the boys wanted me to jump on the trampoline and I would tell them "mommy can't my knees hurt".  And running, well I love to run but my knees hate me to run.. hopefully this will help.  I was totally beside myself because I had finally LOST all but 5 pounds to be back to what I weighted when I got married.  And now I was back up to what I weighed when I was 5 months pregnant.

You can imagine my frustration!!!

So I have taken a different approach to life, weight, happiness.. etc.

I have gone off of the Zoloft and gone on a more natural route (vitamins, etc, that have all that my body might be lacking.)  It has been great! I have been on SAM-e, liquid B-12 and Calcium ...for about a month now and it is working amazing. 

I feel better, lots of energy, happy and I have also just THIS week started a 9 day detox cleanse  program to  kick start my weight loss.  I know I will be happier once I can gain control of my weight again.

Also, accepting who i'am without being a weight NUMBER. I have always been a certain weight and so this is hard for me to define myself and try to get into my clothes that don't fit.  Oh man that it is the worst.  Talk about an ADULT TEMPER TANTRUM!

During this journey I'm trying to find peace in myself.  Find the love from my Savior and gain a  testimony of the gospel. 

I feel like if i'm happy with myself than I can be happy with everything around me.  I can look around and see the MANY MANY blessings that I have.

I  AM truly blessed!

Over the past month, I have regained the desire to kick my butt back into shape, not only physically, but mentally and spiritually.  

I'm excited for this program in my life and it gives me something to look forward to, a goal, a challenge that I can see a change in my life.

I'm grateful for new days and new beginnings.........