Well it is 5:30 AM and I can't sleep, kind of uncomfortable, I have so many mixed emotions. First of all I'm thankful I'm alive. I have to admit I kept thinking I could die from this surgery. This was a pretty high risk surgery so close to my carotid artery, vocal cords, bleeding or infection,as I'm sure any surgery is.
I know that is a crazy thought, I kept thinking that maybe I was able to have my sweet Henry while I STILL had cancer because maybe he needed to be here and now it is my time to go....
As you can see I'm here, doing good and my surgery was a success.
The Lord has a greater plan for me, on this earth :).
Everyone in the hospital was great, I only broke down a quick cry when they were telling me about the procedure one more time.. lucky it was a quick.. oh crap this is really happening cry and then I was back to business trying to focus, as my dear friend Lauren said to me keep my eye on the prize, happy thoughts I'm going to be cancer free!
My sisters, mom, loved ones and many friends gave me lots of "love pep talks".
I really tried to focus and my sister in law Ashlea gave me this squeeze doll that says
" take it easy, don't stress" everyone was laughing and the nurse handed it to me whenever I felt like I was going to get upset. THANKS ASHLEA it was a hit!
I'm cancer free! YAHOO!
I was able to come home and not stay in the hospital. I do have a drain in my chest that I have to leave in for 3 days. I'm pretty sore but it is manageable, the more time goes by I do seem to be getting a little more sore and uncomfortable. I have some pain meds to help me thru the pain if I need it. I can feel a tug when I swallow.. that is a weird feeling. Poor Steve has to change out the drain, thought for sure he would hit the deck as soon as he saw my blood but he has done really good. :)
Oh and they were able to go in my old scare SOOOO I don't have a big huge cut like they thought I would have to do... YEAH! That was great, Huge, wonderful news!
I was able to walk by myself this morning so that is a good start. It is a week recovery without lifting anything more than 5 pounds.
I think I might just like this relaxing week of doing nothing. ;) ;)
I'm so humbled by all the love and support. Our family feels so blessed to be surrounded by so many people who care for us. Thank you for cheering me on, I would not have been able to move forward with so much strength without you. I love you all!
Oh my sweet Steve! He is my rock, my love, my everything! Steve is such an amazing man, so loving, so supportive. I could not ask for any one better to be by my side. I love you babe!
This is my amazing, wonderful, Dr. Rodgers. He truly was so great making this time easy for me and comfortable. It was a good experience. It was so nice have a familiar face to see. He is a friend of our family and I'm grateful the lord used him as a tool in my life to remove my cancer.
Got my hospital socks and my "little pep talk doll"
Recovery- it takes me a long time to wake up from surgery.
