Jammin Journel Alicia's Craving.....

As I walked thru the kitchen I felt like a tiger about to attack the rice crispy treats that Steve made and I looked around at what other sweet thing I could have then made my way straight to the treat... opened the lid and about had to spank my own hand. I was impressed with myself... I said to myself... dangit NO you don't want that. (can you see me yelling at myself...... I think i'm going crazy) So I went and made celery and peanut butter. Humm doesn't that sound like a good trade. NO.....Healthier maybe not better tasting. As I ate the celery I at least felt better about myself.

My last week I have struggled with trying to eat the right and healthier things. I play a mind game with myself and say " oh I can eat just this it won't be that bad" and THEN i'm frustrated with myself for the rest of the day, or when I get on the scale and I haven't lost anymore weight. And it is constantly in the back of my mind that if the cancer is still there in 4 months then it is because I didn't stick to such a strick diet... the constant rollercoaster. Wow how do people do so good with eating so well ALL THE TIME. I have done better than I thought and even my husband... has compimented me on doing good. I have been at this for going on 4 weeks and it has been rewarding and tough. I guess looking at the BIG picture my body will be healthier and i'm happy for the change in my body that I can see. I'm just going to pat myself on the back and keep going and when I do struggle hopefully it won't be a HUGE BIG CUPCAKE.... :) Sincerly Celery Girl!