The rollercoaster week - Cancer results

1/7/08

Monday I went and got my 4 month cancer scan. ( I can't believe it has been 4 months already) This scan will tell me if the 2nd dose of radiation worked. I have so many emotions going on right now, I don't know where to begin. I'm scared that I might have to have surgery, i'm excited that perhaps this new year will bring new adventures (perhaps a new baby if the scan is clean). I'm also nervious to have another dejvu of the whole process. I leave it all in the lords hands. I feel he has brought me to this trial and he will bring me thru it. Thanks to all those that have called and prayed for us. Thanks Lauren for loving my son and watching him while I went thru the scan and Thanks Amber for being so willing to bring Hunter into your home when Steve and I get the results. I know Hunter is like one of your own kids close to your heart so that helps give me peace when he is with you, I know he is in good hands with my wonderful frinds. We are blessed to have such an amazing support group that what ever the results are we will be o.k....... results will be in at 4:00....


1/11/08 Results ...The cancer is still there, the positive side is that it is getting smaller. We will have to wait a month and make a decsion to have surgery or wait longer and hope that it shrinks more. It is kinda interesting cause Steve and I don't have much emotion about it. I didn't even cry this time cause I just don't care anymore and really want this to be over. I'm sure once I realize what is going on it will hit me and I will cry and be frustrated. Well friends and family we love you and will keep you posted. I tell ya never a dull moment for the white family :)